i feel sorry for myself, i have been doing unexpected things.
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there's something 'bout the way you looked at me
made me think for a moment
that maybe we were meant to be
living our lives separately
and it's strange that things change
but not me wanting you so desperately


ohh, why can't i ignore it, yeah
i keep giving in but i should know better
cause there was something bout the way you looked at me
and it's strange that things change
but not me wanting you
so desperately


you looked my way and said "you frustrate me"
like you're thinking of lines and times when you and i were you and me
we took our chance out on the street
and i missed my chance
and chances are it won't be coming back to me


why can't I ignore it, yeah
i keep giving in but i should know better
cause there's something about the way you looked at me
and it's strange that things change
but not me wanting you
so desperately
so desperately, oh

ohh, why can't i ignore it, yeah
i keep giving in but i should know better
cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
and it's strange that things change
but not me wanting you
so desperately
i want you so desperately

i keep giving in but i should know better
i keep giving in but i should know better
so desperately
i want you so desperately
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sometimes i get so numb i thought it would just last forever and i feel great being numb. because it means i have the strength to walk away for that moment but i know when my numbness fades, my regrets cant stop piling up.

i dont understand why must we exchange hurtful words to shred ourselves apart?


this is her surprise for me! no one really did such stuffs for me ever, and i really feel weird being pampered like this. not as though i hate being pampered, but the feeling is so new and i dont think i have ever felt it before. i said sth stupid enough to have her storming out of my way and i know i never meant to say it at all.

if she could ever read this,

baby thank you for turning around. i know i can never seem appreciative enough but you have to believe me, i am. i am really surprised by your little actions, i am sorry for being such a bitch. i never meant to.

sigh now she refuses to talk to me, i feel like a big ass jerk. it is very funny how we never really seemed to catch each other when we're at the top of our affections.

i dont think i could be without her.
i dont think we could ever be without each other.