little did i know i would spend a modest vday this year despite being v.v lonely for coming a year with someone whom i have been spending most of my waking time with. a modest vday with the bare necessities that could make do for two yet feeling so liberated with no eyes or words seething through us. i try not say this with more or less intentions, but i feel safe when i am with her, all of me slows down to take in the moments whenever her name or face appears and no, my heart doesn't accelerates because anything's that fast, don't last. i am not looking at anything else because what i really see and want is the present with no animosity, no great expectations or any savage garden songs or even cheesy lines or maybe worst, a facade. i won't say the cheesy lines to this woman because i find almost zero value in words that many speak these days but i am willing to race against time to paint my favourite scene. not of the future but of the present because time will never standstill or fast forward for all of us and all we have is now, now and now. actually, i never really knew someone like her existed and i never thought about anything else but silently adding points to the points system as she would be loudly reducing my points exclaiming my disability as a spouse but it is okay, maybe one day i will kill her system with one extreme hit (but she will fault me as usual). however all of you wants to see this as, this entry is intended in anyway you choose to perceive, they say imagination is magical.

i like some magical moments.

yeah for you a million times over.