another weekend,

another weekend, without you.

i almost had you, i almost touched you, i almost kissed you, i almost.. i almost had you. i felt so discarded, the way you shunned away, the way you pushed me away, the way you never ever want to see me ever again.

why are you doing this? cold turkey isnt going to work, we both know this aint going to work. you are making me die for you, making me fade away, you're making me going away. this is what you've been wanting isnt it?

yes ive been waiting for your calls days and nights but i havent been expecting you to call. you are making me fade away and suddenly you're back to sweep me back again. bay, i cant stand this. it hurts so badly.

i am sorry i slept over at her house, i never thought it could hurt you this way i thought you would want me to go away. i never meant to, but i can never explain to you ever again because all you could do is to misunderstand my words and i get tired of explaining, i know i am wrong, i admitted it. but why do we always have to fight? why do we always have to hurt each other in one way or another?

because of this incident, you thought i dont love you and everything has just gone to waste. bay, when you pushed me away, have you even thought about my feelings? i love you so much and every inch of me wants you back so badly, why? why couldnt we just get past this after so much that we have went through..

i wont put you thru those nightmares again. my heart aches, it hurts to not know and only the worst that could be happening at home. i wish i could still shelter you in my arms, and loving you the way i have always been doing.

how much do you miss me bay? have you been well? how much of you is still mine? i wish you'd say you'd come back, i love you..

i cant need anyone else, because i want you right now so badly.

dont doubt me ever again
because i am still yours.