my first weekend without you.

i dont know what happened, i lost all of my directions i dont know what to do on saturdays anymore. i slept into the late afternoon - when we are supposed to be hand in hand window shopping playing 'dont step this' - when we are supposed to be chummy with each other in our long bus journey. i miss you gorgeous.

i woke up to the fact that you are not mine anymore, i woke to tears trickling down, i woke to call out your name. when will this nightmare end?

i stare as my future moves into bleaker blank.