i see friends/annoymous-es have been polling! and i am going to cut these shaggy locks and i dont know, i might just resemble some hardcore lesbian butch. oh gee, i am going soft! come on, you know, soft butch. lol ( and honestly i hate being called a butch. yucks, butches are like for secondary school, or BUNG is like the maximum anyone can go, coughslosercoughs)

so today's 8th april, which is momsie's birthday! things havent been smooth for my parents and i have decided to be a good girl this year, ordered female magazine subscription and had stayed by her side on her birthday. in fact i was thinking maybe we should go zoo! but guess where did i go?

we drove all the way to choa chu kang to look at some orchid farm, which has like millions of orchid and she could start naming them off her fingers, like 'this is ms joaquim (SPELL?)' blah blah blah under the sweltering sun. i thought she went to 'Orchid University'. i was trying my best to tolerate because its her special day! she could spend like 7 hours there if you dont pull her away in about 2 hours.


she's horrible, she wants to visit farms like this, but she wants to carry an umbrella and apply sunscreen. and i reallly regretted not wearing my cap it was like freaking humid and hot. and she loves orchid so much, she started chatting up with this lady about orchids which really pushes me to the limit.


( i know dont say, my mom looked like my elder sister which i never had)


and i was just sighing from far and she heard it, she was like, 'honey, go to the aircon room there first okay be good!' i trudged my heavy feets to the air con room, and i went in.

?!@!$@#?$%??&??*(??@#$?@#$?@$

it was hotter than outside, it was blooody humid and i dont think the air con was even switched on. i know that face looks really ugly and its time for a haircut, ok you guys got it. i got it.
BUT CAN YOU UNDERSTAND HOW BLEDDY HOT IT WAS?

but i really love my mom alot and i would rather be scorched to death than to see her unhappy. if orchid makes her happy, i guess id like buy her unique orchids for her every year! even though, i hate plants and plants hate me, they just die at the sight of me and how they crowded my balcony, i'd still buy plants for my momsie because my momsie talks to them first before me.

*waiting for mom to be back home*
*door's open*

me: MOMMMMMSIE!
mom: wait wait, i water plants first. HELLO HOW ARE YOU HOW'S THE SUN TODAY? HOT OR NOT? AIYO I BET PUT MORE WATER.
mom: hi honey *hugs*
me: ....

honestly i cannot think of any more dysfunctional family anyone would have.
my family's practically queer. in any form.

so that's today.
this week has been .. i dont know, kinda heart wrenching, mind boggling.

i am not sure if i am really to just talk because no one's really keen on listening and people keep leaving and you just dont know how to carry on your stories and you have no idea where to pick it up. i live no expectations but i refuse to give in.

i will talk again.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

so who's the forever lover?