i like them

malacca's sunset

i think i really grew up alone with occasional flow of friends and family but i bared all of it on my own because i am the only child, the only daughter of this household. i don't have a constant companion and that has taught me very well of being tough and independent, although i might still be living under my parent's roof and feeding on my parent's money but it doesn't mean i am spoilt, bratty or other descriptions of an only child. i consider myself as an individual and the only individual because i have yet to find someone who is exactly like me, if i happen to find that someone who is exactly like me, i think she is the one.

someone who dances or skips to barry white in the morning, who creates really bad jokes but really funny that throws your friends off the hook, someone who would rather stay in for in-house movies, someone who would go out alone and just plug in her ipod, someone who would keep her phone silent ignoring the world and her friends are lucky to get her text replies faster, someone who would enjoy hot starbucks vanilla latte under a hot sun, someone who would love mambo nights, someone who enjoys viceroy and couldn't/wouldn't smoke other brands (maybe besides Marlboro ice mints!), someone who would want to finish traveling Asia in within 9 years, someone who would be able to do household chores except ironing clothes, someone who could exude such great confidence & charisma, someone who would just read sweet valley books or chick lits.. etc, someone who's capable of romantic antics! ( all must exist together)

basically, someone who's like me.

but for now, for those who have been reading this space, get a moniker if you don't feel comfortable putting your real name, let me know what you have thought of me as a friend or someone virtual.

i thank you for your comments and harsh words in any case, in advance. ( for this entry, i have activated haloscan for your compositions)

(i told you i hate titles)

(this is the east side of sg for you)
inspired by peter bjorn and john- young folks!

I used to blog frivolously every other day because there were so many events happening, be it physically or emotionally. No, I haven't slowed down any. Because for 21 years, I am finally living like an individual instead of being "clique-y" or literally frivolous or maybe I just found peace and contentment within myself. I spent my time with my mom making her cook so often than ever (crying hungry poor child), I spent my time traveling to school with my favourite music (although I don't update my song lists or following the latest tunes, I am still stuck with albums), I spent class hours with my classmates scribbling silly conversations with charlotte (because we are not allowed to talk) and smoking, I spent my time traveling back home with Sangewea (PSP), I spent my weekends with my friends eating steamboat, catching hk serials, movie themes and alot of bad jokes (mostly contributed by me) and smoke of course.

I have mellowed into a woman who is taking charge of her life with her priorities. I don't spend my time wallowing in self-pity, crying unfairness, yelling its a yes or the high way or pondering what's going to happen next. In fact, I am living my life with zest!

Sometimes it felt strange to feel contentment or happiness. I have accepted the fact that people do come and go, very well. I have become so neutral sometimes it scares me if I would lose feelings or emotions.

Whatever happens, please do know that having your family and your closest friends by your side is something that you could never ask for more.


(shit i am getting boring)
(anyway today is 黄金路大决局, so quit calling my cell!)
(after today, then ask me out)

horsin' around.

if no one knew, yes i have taken my handful locks away but people are still complaining, so hard to please leh all of you! anyhow, sorry for the lack of updates! been catching up with mediacorp shows (lol, huang jin lu!), procreating in my sims, watching ally mcbeal and of course, projects! i think i am evolving again, i am not sure this time but of course i am quite contented with life right now. with plans to guam and vietnam in respectively february and march! (of course exams in between, grr!) no, i have never celebrated chinese new year in Singapore! i have a weird family but i love my extended family which means smelly fish (chloe - in chinese, chou yu) and yuhuizai especially popo (chinese for grandmother!) please reserve the biggest ang pow for me omg, i get to receive ang pows from xw too! ok all my cousins who are reading, please get married soon!

life is good oh i have a new tag line for year 2008.

it used to be, "single, available, ready to mingle!"

now, it is, "cant lose freedom, dont do obligations."

people you need theme song in your life! it brings your shoulders moving to the beat of it and it should be a rather cheery and uplifting song! it will bring you out of whatever depression or darkness you are facing anytime.

omg its 2am and i seriously need to sleep!

2007 Happened

I would try to be concise and less upsetting in entries like this! I have a knack for depressing entries, in fact I admit that I do write better when I am super depressed! Ok, here we go. (Not going to elaborate at all, sadness in elaboration?!)

1. Started 2007 with K.


2. Lost Grandpop on 12th Jan 07.

3. We broke up.


4. Cheryl and I hosted NTU Hall 10's 10th anniversary charity carnival to the Singapore Chesire Home at Novena Square for 3 days.

5. Eunice


6. Gisele.


7. Verve


8. Celebrated Fiona's 20th.


9. Melissa
10. My 20th
11.Scuffles
12. Bangkok




13. Melissa's graduation

14. Cousin's wedding (DONT LAUGH)


15. Dr Raj's wedding



16. Nurses Night Out!


17. Met up with old friends.

18. Julyn's 19th + Virgin Gmax Ride



19. Emily's 20th


20. Jasmine's departure to Germany ( love the hair jasmine, roll eyes! hee!)


21. Japan



22. Virgin train ride to M'sia.



23. Shaun's 25th


24. Annual Geylang trip for food! (Hari Raya!)


25. Jill and Liwen's birthday!


26. Charlotte's 19th.


27. Juice's 9th.


and many other small events of course, i am sorry if i did missed out certain few(s). i spent christmas differently from others, i spent it alone (not literal) but with different groups of friends (hence, pinball) and not the same people that i used to spend it with. and this year's new 2008 bang, alone.

hey it doesnt matter, i have myself and i think i am living for myself and not with someone else or for someone else. with this, i found peace, stability and grasp of bigger pictures. i spent most of my december holidays with my secondary school sweethearts (not so secondary afterall in this context), dogged friends (with cheryl included - she became one of them - interrelated somehow), my loving but annoying lotte and i do realized the time i have spent with mel & friends were bare. i am a pinball and i think i would always be a pinball and now i do realized what the "universal" card meant.

i have lost many important people in the 2007 and some would never come back but some did. i met Maine only in later this year ever since we broke up and it brought back millions of memories but all i can say is that, i am thankful that she is back and with the friendship i could offer her. she remained significant till this day and at least i have her back this xmas & new year.

i dont expect people to stay for long but those who have stayed, i thank you for your presence and your love. i don't always have appreciation at the tip of my tongue but my gratefulness are etched deeply in my heart.

this year is about to end, and this year for me is about to end.
2007 happened.

i wish all of you well and with so much love.
i wish all of you with so much so much love.

thank you.

Life life life.

I am so sorry for that long unannounced hiatus. Been really busy these few weeks with endless projects (with really loser teammates) and whatever assessments i had! This whole new year 3 is rather fulfilling and busy and I really like it a lot despite my frequent rants but its great!

Yeah 1724's out, I am not sure how many caught it but it is great! I think we have a shot at winning first prize which is 10k. Ok I sound too confident but even if we dont win, its fine because I think we did a great job for the pre-publicity and the bed scene-stomps prints peripheral! I have always wanted to participate/be involved in AIDS campaign! Totally self-actualizing already.






For the rest of the photos, please visit stompAIDSnyp!

Right after 1724, I had a whole weekend getaway to Malacca with my friends to just release whatever I need to. Everything was breathing down my neck and seriously, I needed that getaway although it was short but it was really relaxing. Nothing fanciful but.











This year .. is about to end so quickly. Unknowingly its December and 2008 is coming, and so many things happened in 2007 which held close to my heart for the heart aches, lessons and also small bits of happiness here and there! Consensus to short lived happiness?

Maybe I should spend sometime recollecting my thoughts for 2007. Give me sometime, because i think I have turned into hokkienvulgarityclubpresident07@hotmail.com and hokkienvulgarityclubvicepresident07@hotmail.com ahahahahaha.

So Christmas's around the corner and I have no idea how to spend it and I dont think I want to spend it in Sg, no choice but to i think but luckily momsie gets to go Philippines and chill for Xmas! I have been really good but recently I have been pulled back but rest assured I am alright.

So chill out and await for a long time no emo post! I am just so fidgety right now! and really exclamationy! !!!!!!!!

shut up ju.

Juice 9th's Birthday Bash @ Zouk

Happy Juice.

Anyway in contrary to the title, today is Charlotte's birthday. I refuse to wish her happy birthday this morning but here it is,

生日快乐! 祝你早生柜子.

(happy birthday, may you give birth to cupboards soon)